Jesy Nelson reveals Little Combine was ending anyway earlier than making suicide try and quitting band

Warning: This text accommodates dialogue of suicide which some readers might discover distressing.

In December 2020, Jesy Nelson left Little Combine after 9 years with the favored lady band.

On the time, followers all over the world have been shocked that the singer would give up the X Issue-formed group, additionally made up of Jade Thirlwall, Leigh-Anne Pinnock and Perrie Edwards, with the narrative arguably being she had been the one one to make this determination.

And the 32-year-old musician has by no means spoken out herself about why she truly walked, leaving rumours and theories to spiral.

However now, in her new Prime Video documentary, Jesy Nelson: Life After Little Combine, the singer has opened up as she reveals what went down in a hope to lastly ‘put it to mattress’.

In response to Nelson, in a declare many didn’t anticipate, the lady group was already on account of finish anyway.

And tragically, her exit got here following a suicide try.

Nelson, a mum of twins who’ve sadly been recognized with SMA Kind 1, says within the doc that she ‘all the time thought’ the band could be ‘collectively endlessly’, however her time with them was underscored by her personal insecurities and psychological well being struggles.

The star had beforehand made suicide makes an attempt and battled together with her weight however it appears she wished to stick with the group, who she known as ‘sisters’.

“I’ve by no means been in a position to say, it was by no means truly my determination to depart first, I truly didn’t need any of this to occur,” Nelson says.

And he or she remembers being introduced into a gathering that she had a nasty ‘intestine feeling’ about the place they apparently mentioned that ‘one of many ladies had determined that they didn’t need to be within the band anymore’.

At this second, Nelson felt like her ‘entire world had fell aside’ and was ‘devastated’ on the information one among her bandmates wished out and the group could be ending.

She claims a remaining tour was deliberate after which the announcement could be made. Nevertheless, lockdown extended every thing and ‘that’s when every thing simply received messy’.

With the tour postponed, Nelson spent lockdown with a pal and it appeared as if she was considerably again to her previous self as her household say she received her ‘glad methods again’.

However throughout interviews with Little Combine, she felt as if they have been being faux, saying they’d be ‘collectively endlessly’, once they knew that wasn’t the case.

And once they received again to work, she was ‘dreading’ it.

Her family members say she was ‘damaged’ and Nelson says it felt just like the environment in Little Combine had shifted. She started having panic assaults once more and was swarmed ‘in nervousness’.

The singer claims she advised her bandmates how she was feeling however received the impression ‘nobody cares’.

And after just a few days, Nelson’s mum, Janice, had a sense one thing was mistaken, repeatedly wringing her till she answered, slurring her phrases.

“I knew she’d performed one thing,” she says, as an ambulance was then known as for the star.

After this suicide try, the singer knew she ‘couldn’t do it’ anymore and Janice advised her she wanted ‘to cease doing what’s making you sad’.

So, this meant leaving Little Combine.

Nelson says a lawyer advised the ladies earlier than she had probability – a chance she’s ‘mad was taken away from me’.

She now says she’s solely spoken to her former bandmates since a name following that (throughout her being pregnant) and has struggled with the narrative since.

“I simply actually f**king hate that there was 9 and a bit lovely years with the ladies and I truly actually, actually didn’t need for us to be recognized for that sh**ty half,” she provides. “We had such lovely occasions and we actually genuinely have been sisters and I feel that’s what’s so unhappy about this entire factor.”

After their tour in 2022, Little Combine went on hiatus with Edwards, Pinnock and Thirlwall exploring solo tasks.

The LADbible Group has contacted representatives for Little Combine and its members for remark.

Jesy Nelson: Life After Little Combine is now streaming on Amazon Prime Video

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